IT'S FINALLY HOLIDAY. although this holiday is going to be filled with projects and stuffs.. maths remedial.. but. it's still holiday! not having to wake up at 5.30 everyday feels good. :D

Picked up Left 4 Dead recently. it's a zombie shooting game. haha. it's the first bloody and shooting game i play. guess it must be attractive in some ways to make me wanna play it :D been going to the Lan newly opened near my area and met a bunch of cool L4D friends there, i learnt a lot from them =). thank you Mark! Dan and Joe too =) haha not forgetting Sunjay and his "handbag" of red liquids =X

and my audition Family too. they've been treating me nice. and i found someone i really like, as a couple. he's nice, kind, caring, mature. i'm so thankful that we met at the recruiting room that day. maybe this is called fate? xD donny, i hope we would walk a long way. with the constant caring heart we have for each other. we'll make the best audition Couple! <3 ya. thank you for staying by my side and keeping me company for the past few weeks, smsing me even though you're at a school camp. <3 again. hehe...



To Myself:

after been sad for all this while. i feel like i could move on. afterall, he's treating me cold already. maybe worse than a friend? i think it's time for me to wipe dry my tears and be more focused on what i really want in life. my hair's growing longer and longer, as much as i would like to cut it, to try something new, i cannot bear. maybe because i want the memories? I picked this song to be a final goodbye, although it might not be really suitable.. but at least i want to believe it this way~ i always used to say, if i collected the amount of tears i cried for you, i'm probably able to fill a bottle. and today. i will close that bottle. so that i can move on, not needing to think of you anymore. or at least try not to be too sad over it.. afterall. like you said, it's the past. we should move on. you're going in army in a few days' time. and i think probably we will never see each other again... maybe that is. my happy ending.

here's the song. i will wipe all my tears off when today is done. and believe the ridiculous lie : tomorrow will be a better day. believe it for one day. at least. haha..

从来没想过不能再和你牵手
委屈时候没有你陪着我心痛
一切都是我太过骄纵以为你会懂
一直忘了说我有多感动
我知道你还是爱着我
虽然分开的理由我们都已接受
你知道我会有多难过
所以即使到最后还微笑着要我加油
我知道你还放不下我
才会在离开时闭着眼没有回头
我们都知道彼此心中
其实这份爱没停过
曾经完整幸福的梦在脑海里头
我多希望你还在我左右
答应你我会好好过
不让这些眼泪白流


althou i'm not promising you. but i will promise myself. i'll live happily, do not let the tears flow for nothing~
cest le vie~

cheer up girl. you will get over it. <3